bye (revised)

(in progress) its such a pointless word for all purpose farewell i cannot say if it will but i know it might if not well, that will just be simply ok? I should say something but i cannot spit it out So now will i die not knowing if i was the cause Do i care no i cannot ive gone numb eating lies Depression is evil they say we should avoid Avoid, to do what? To smile a fake smile? Should we run to paranoia to find fake joys I wish that i or someone could find the cure The hammer pounds the nails sealing the death death death up on a cross and high for all to see It is for me to say if you will stay or if you'll run away? I wish it were i wish it weren't im glad and im very sad What happened to all your friends? Four sit at foot I cannot bare to think of my own foolishness To run when i should have stood to sleep when i should pray i cannot say it cannot mutter cannot stammer out the words as i see the blood drip out i wonder Are you really coming back do you really want to save me? thrusting the spear into your side i decide your dead Muscles grow week my hands feel limp what have we done? The blood upon my hands its awful stench dominates all Pain i know you felt grips my heat like ice Goodbye? what a stupid foolish utterance MY GOD HES DEAD Falling i throw away the lots the foolishness ive lived Shall i die now to follow a dead man to his tomb? Can i believe in the man ive killed can i know him? Daily life turns from past to present things have changed My friends write me off as a freak the taverns last in mind All desire gone limp all love gone stale who was that man? The words he muttered...finished? indeed he was finished... (in progress)