Nov. 1999

Alone again, I sit and stare... Lost in a world I'm unable to share You are not with me when you are away Sometimes you're not when you're with me anyway This bitter fear, this empty void, can not be surpressed or simply distroyed Too drained to cry, too tired to sleep Too lonely to call you, too giving to keep This house is not home, this room is not mine These people don't want me, I'm not blind I close my eyes to see you there... pointing your finger with an evil stare "I don't like who you are" your eyes say "You're this burden I can't chase away." Maybe you think that isn't true, that I shouldn't think that way of you But you're always fighting and telling me I'm stupid And maybe I am but it hasn't been proven I feel like a stranger in my own life So lonely and scared and all that strife I want to tell you but I'm too scared You wouldn't understand even if you cared I can't explain what it's like to be me No friends, no family... only you, you see.