Blade Apon My Throat {song}

hiding from myself in this world full of hate denying to myself my own pain filled fate tears that do not rise to surface in my eyes are held in by my own selfish lies i hold my head high as i walk through life never knowing this isn't what i'm like [chorus] take this blade apon my throat and pull it through the skin end this torment of the world end this pain i'm always in oh do me a favor and take my life pull the blade and shed the crimson gold watch my life oh watch my life and you'll see the pain unfold cry this river of tears that you drown in take this blade and make blood rise to your skin bury me deeper in the ground so cold dieing young instead of old the crawling pain under my flesh with the happy smile does not mesh [chorus] take this blade apon my throat and pull it through the skin end this torment of the world end this pain i'm always in oh do me a favor and take my life pull the blade and shed the crimson gold watch my life oh watch my life and you'll see the pain unfold take me to the river and hold my head under put my life on pause so you can wonder how i can be as desprate as this when i have a smile you can not miss fake is my name as is my plea happiness to me is not the key oh happiness to me is not the key i have a heart as cold as ice don't want to live through something as cruel as life crying on my pillow every night under the stars this pain i felt is the worst by far yet all i do is hold onto the smile my soul is what i hope to defile [chorus] take this blade apon my throat and pull it through the skin end this torment of the world end this pain i'm always in oh do me a favor and take my life pull the blade and shed the crimson gold watch my life oh watch my life and you'll see the pain unfold