I wish it was you I could smell in my hair,
and not him.
When I take my clothes off and feel scared, I wish it was
you with me like old times,
and not him.
The fact is simply that I am dying to hold you, 
and not him.
When you speak to me now, I love only that,
and not him.
Why didn't you tell me you loved me, 
and not him.
I would give anything to be best friends with you again,
and not him.

I'll still keep you as a muse,
and not him.
When I dream at night, it will be of you,
and not him.
If I cry over love, it will be for you, always,
and not him.
In truth, I could only ever love you forever,
and not him.

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