I don’t know what’s going on!

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By My_pain_your_thrill •

I don’t know what’s going on! What’s happening to me? Why cant I be happy? Sadness is all I see, I take these pills, They calm me down, But I still cant smile, And you all frown. I don’t know what’s going on! Why does this happen to me? I didn’t ever want this, But I don’t know who I wanted to be, I hide all my misery, Behind a clearly fake smile, But though I try so hard, My disguise only lasts a while, I don’t know what’s going on! And you all see right through, How can I fool everyone, If I cant even fool you? I am so tired of trying, And living in a sad song, You all think I can cope, While I string myself along, I don’t know what’s going on! Please help me out!! I don’t want these pills, And a blade? What’s that about? This was never meant to be me, I tried not to fall, I clung on so desperately, But in the end, I fell after all, What’s going on? I don’t know anymore, I wish I was numb, ‘Cause my heart is so sore, What’s going on? I’m running away, I am not strong, I’m weak, What more can I say?

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December 19, 2005 22:44waterlily

wish i couldd take a vacation from my own self..to brando's island

July 25, 2006 20:38 Kirsty (living in the light)

Nice poem. I wanted to tell you something that not many people know, well that didn't until recently because I only started recently. Well, I self Harm. I haven't done it for long and hope to stop, im trying to stop. So I don't know what you've gone through or anything, but I can understand why people turn to self harm. you can read some of my recent poems if you like. they are called scratches and pain.