the city streets
cracked sidewalks
wildflowers and broken
down rancid sportscars
proud now
proud now
can you say you
stay here
and would you
ever say
dear... no
no you couldn't
you couldn't be true.
its a shame
that reality always
comes along and plays
these nasty games.
i think sometimes
it's time
im ready
but no you
called my bluff
world
fuck you.
i've really
pretty much had enough.
im going to win
i'll take you down
i'll beat you
i'll beat you down.
forgive and forget
i have no regrets
i learned
did i not?
look at me now
can't you see just
how much better
a person life
has made me?
haha, thats joke right
yes laugh laugh
riot. 
if anything
i've learned is hypocracy
and vengance well earned.
it was you
this whjole time
i thought it was me
but i was wrong
like usual
and look whats become
our world so numb
painstaking
labourous days
teahing myself
to love you
getting ready
to desert you.
did you see it coming
i hope you did
you couldnt could you
blind fool
you are so entranced
with your drugs and
your sex.
i didnt see that
i didnt evenm have a clue
all this time,
i thought it was me
and never you.
well i was wrong
it is you. you are
the bad. i'll get over it
someday
fuck you.
the love i never had.

xoxo
Ellie J