Heartbreak - Part 2

I'm hot, burning up I just layed in my bed still feeling this heartbreaking feeling while listening to jagged edge I remember wanting to marry you wanting to hold, kiss, and never let you go now that i've lost you my heartbreak is starting to slow like i need that i would rather it go faster i'm no better than my father who wasn't there so i guess that makes me a bastard not wanted by him or the person i love god what will i have to do to have you send some affection from above? I have no best friend or true love they have all left me if they were my sight, i would be blind, because i wouldnt see but maybe that would be better or just easier that way not to be wake up and feel the pain of looking at her pictures everyday thinking of all the good times when we were together Dear God why couldn't you have stopped me from losing her?