heartbreak - Part 5

This is how i feel: Stupid, helpless, guilty, dead tryin to think of new words while i'm layin here writin poems in my bed listening to.....usher its Superstar i'm thinkin bout everything we've been through and how perfect 'we' were i still adore you as i look down to my phone and realize that it's never gonna ring i'm just gonna be here alone i'm rired but i cant doze off my heart is back in overdrive at this point i'm thinkin "Why should i even be alive" "It's not worth living, only to go through with this pain" my mind shifts and i'm wondering if its started to rain listening to joe as he sings "More and More" wantin to get in my car, pull out in fromt of a truck, so that it can hit my driver's side door Amanda Perex is on this CD singing "I pray" well my prayers havent been answered my love has just gone away