Tantrum

i scream cry and shout im crawling on the floor dragging my knees begging you please give me whatever it is i crave. dont do this to me theres enough demons in my head already dont laugh at me dont fuel my anger for your own sake i scream again but you dont seem to hear sometimes i wonder if you even care. you're the reason for anger my hate and my own downfall in the end i hate hating you i hate not being able to kill the thought of hating you. i just hate you. once again i find myself dragging my knees on the concrete scratched, bleeding and torn. why do you do this? you make me crazy in a vengeful sort of way you put me in a "destroy the world" mood well let me tell you i hope you're fucking happy with the monster you've created within me. its down to this when actually i dont know how far down we've fallen so i guess saying down was senseless because its left me reasonless but all i can say about you is that you make me want to pull my hair out scratch the evil from my eyes and rip apart the demon seed inside my mind get me a drill and i will unscrew you from my mind forever. finally giving me the well deserved peace that i wanted in the first place but instead you had to deny me what it was that i deserved in the very end. guess what? you lost. and every now and again i wonder if i lost something other than what i myself took.