Love Lost Soliloquiy

this pain leaves my eyes as these thoughts leave my mind clawing my way out with no doubt that i've got nowhere else to turn trying to find which way is right and finding finally what i've left was wrong. still fighting thouhgts and feelings that still hold strong the benefit of the doubt lacks justification just a numbing sensation running all myself cold the dead end with only darkness ahead but right now it seems better than this life that i've led. left rattled and broken lost and unspoken the quiet was so easy back then... but this voice causes so much pain now... if only to cut it out to leave it behind and continue knowing well that the nothing never ever caused me pain... when there was nothing... and the happiness should far outweigh the pain and nerves and words they say not just today or in this way i see its not okay so rambled and random... confusing jargon... like my heart and my mind so off beat... just slow yourself and come to rest right here inside my lonely chest the lifeless moments still in store at last at peace forever more...