this pain leaves my eyes 
as these thoughts leave my mind
clawing my way out 
with no doubt that
i've got nowhere else to turn

trying to find which way is right
and finding finally what i've left 
was wrong.
still fighting thouhgts and feelings
that still hold strong

the benefit of the doubt 
lacks justification 
just a numbing sensation 
running all myself cold

the dead end with only
darkness ahead
but right now it seems better
than this life that i've led.

left rattled and broken
lost and unspoken
the quiet was so easy back then...
but this voice causes so much pain now...

if only to cut it out
to leave it behind and continue 
knowing well that the nothing 
never ever caused me pain...
when there was nothing...

and the happiness should far outweigh
the pain and nerves and words they say
not just today or in this way 
i see its not okay 

so rambled and random...
confusing jargon...
like my heart and my mind
so off beat...

just slow yourself and come to rest
right here inside my lonely chest 
the lifeless moments still in store
at last at peace forever more...