I don't know what's wrong
I don't know what's right
All I know
Is this feeling inside

It makes me laugh
It makes me cry
Bot no matter how hard I try
It just won't ever be enough
To understand and to know why
Why it is even here
Or is this feeling 
just called fear?

Can somebody tell me please?

Is the reason
really that plain?
Or is what I'm feeling
another pain?

Doubts, memories, thoughts...
Feelings of guilt

You're trying to cover
To cover them all
Knowing the truth
That inside they're built

You tell them to go
Want them to stop

But you know they're always on top
On top of your thoughts
Confusing and weird
They make you get lost.

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Written on Feb. 18th 2005

(This was my first poem ever!)