i was once lost 
in the shadows
of my mind
I feel in this world 
i have come to find
i cant trust you
or anyone else
sometimes i can't even 
trust myself
i cry black tears
of pain and of sorrow
wondering if i 
if and just how
hown i can ever last
will i make it until tomorrow
i feel out of place
everywhere i go
i am so out 
of reach with the world
in a race against life
it's a race against tme
a race i've already lost
i left myself
so far behind
lost and confused
i ask you now
what do i do?
someday i will
have the courage and bravery
rooted deep inside my soul
some day i will leave the shadows
of my mind
i will enter the world
i will trust and i'll love
i will suddenly
come to find
that i am beautiful
deep n the back thoughts of my mind...
in my own way
things will get better
day by day

xoxo
Ellie J