how i long for your
fingers to linger
touching more than skin
pause a second
i'll let you in.

i'll carve you a door
i'll show you my secrets
come on surely you must implore?
red. crimson. dark
so deep it's black.

i bleed black
i do it for you
i care too much
kick my heart some more?

i'll carve a window for the door
you can lock yourself
inside myself
trapped now
do you feel the pain?

the momentary gain is worth
this.
to see your smile
or watch you wince
when these gashes of
you catch just a glimpse.

hold me now?
i need a mother
i need you to want me
so i can want myself.

xoxo
ELlie J