Sweet Sacrifice

how i long for your fingers to linger touching more than skin pause a second i'll let you in. i'll carve you a door i'll show you my secrets come on surely you must implore? red. crimson. dark so deep it's black. i bleed black i do it for you i care too much kick my heart some more? i'll carve a window for the door you can lock yourself inside myself trapped now do you feel the pain? the momentary gain is worth this. to see your smile or watch you wince when these gashes of you catch just a glimpse. hold me now? i need a mother i need you to want me so i can want myself. xoxo ELlie J