Facing Fears of Feelings

maybe i'm scared to face the things i feel. maybe it was just easier to walk away. to pretend i didn't care. but i really did and do.. i couldn't face the things i felt. and now i stand on the precautious edge of everything i ever wanted. and still now i sit confused wondering if all of this could be true. if we could just resend our messages.. we could live in non fake happiness. maybe i should just say what i fear in my heart maybe i should just tell you... if it was ever real. there was a time, when i understood everything that i felt and knew... and now i dont even know who my friends are. all i know, is im candy coated but chipping off, my chocolae centre metling all over your clean floor.. and im losing im trying, but inside im dying and i can't even explain to you howi feel about the things you say the actions that you do. how you hair is so pretty that i think you have perefct eyes, and that if maybe you would just smile... i just can't open myself and expose to you the truth. and if i rip open my heart who will clean up the mess? will you help me restitch and repiece my broken heart? we've been apart for so very long i wonder if our friendship is really all the same. don't get me wrong... we're still frieds forever but is it what it was? we need to sit down and talk. i have lots to tell you about and lots to explain. but i can't do that.. i fear what i feel and i wonder if it is even real... and even if i told you... would you even understand... that i think i love you? xox Kyelle **for Michelle**