Dreaming of My Father

I have seen my father in my dreams sometimes as a neighbor, a friend and as my own child. Sometimes a girl sometimes a boy he was never physically my father, but I knew it was him. it mades me weep everytime I see him in my dreams, I miss him so. I wonder why I have this dream for it's torture to me,it makes me want him here. Sometimes when I see him in my dreams it gives me a happy feeling, knowing that I will see him see his spirit in some other form weather it's in my family or maybe even in the body of one I bare through my own body with love, I am patiently waiting for that day.