Wandering prayer, by Faith
If I close my eyes
and try
to disappear
will the doubt
vanish
along with
this fear I feel?
Or am I doomed
to fail
at almost
every
thing
I do?
If I close my eyes
tight
will I become
the silence
between Your words?
Will I feel connected
in some
small way
to the
elaborate plans
You hold out to me
in Your hands?
If I shut my eyes
for a moment
and release
my
heart
from the vice
I repeatedly lock it in
will You teach me
to love
as You love?
Patiently?
Humbly?
Unconditionally?
Or am I alone
in this struggle?
If I scream
at the top
of my lungs
will You answer?
Will You send
water from heaven
to drench
my dry
weary soul
before I drift away
with the wind?
Or am I already lost?
©2005