Letting Go While Holding On

By LaLa •
As I walked away, I heard him cry.
I felt the pain as I breathed and sighed.
I wanted to hug him as I pushed him away,
Hoping he would leave, but I wanted him to stay.
He did not understand and neither did I.
I needed him to be there, I shouldn't have said goodbye.
I see him when he is near, I miss him when he is far.
I think about him during the day and underneath the stars.
People say harsh comments that I try not to believe,
But I feel the doubt is behind me when I see the actions that I see.
The words you can say make me melt like ice cream on a hot summer day.
It is hard to walk away from the feelings that I felt for you.
I know this is hard, and I don't mean to be mean,
I promise you are not alone...the pain is with me.
I don't mean to be selfish, I just don't know why
I needed you as a friend, not just another lover.
Please do not be upset with me, I will grow up someday soon.
Maybe on that bright day it will be you and I.
LaLa Curse