Growing Up

My life has been so bad these past years. As time goes by, it multiplies my fears. I'm scared to grow up although I've waited so long. I guess that my ideas of growing up were completely wrong. All these decisions that must be made, Are flying at me faster than a soldier unarmed in a bullet raid. I have so many choices now to make and fast, I don't know how much longer my overworked brain will last. Getting engaged to be married, is in my mind, But the older people tell me that my love is blind. I'm like "How do you know? You don't know that I feel." And they say..."I can tell you one thing. Your love is not real." It's not fair because they can't judge me, Their generation is a part of past and not a part of the future, you see. Becoming an adult is so hard for me to do. I have a lot of changes that I will need to adjust to. I love my boo and I don't care what people got to say about it. They not in my place so they don't have to live without it. "It" is referring to the love that he gives that I yearn to receive. And the kisses that he gives which are tender and soft as a breeze. The way his love touches me is like an endless dream. And God knows I hope that dream never ends without me being beside him. I can't express our relationship and how he makes me feel But what I do know is that our love is real. I happen not to care what happens to people who didn't want us to be together. All I care about is pleasing him and keeping him forever. Because growing up is hard to do, as I stated once before. Because, you see, if somebody's not around to be there for you, you have nobody to be there for. LaLa Curse 12/30/03