Just because 
I am shouting
and my eyes tear
doesnt mean i am sharing
oesnt me that i care

Becuase she is pretty
Doesnt mean she doesnt cry

she comes off strong
seems like theres
nothing wrong
She just doesnt know
Where she belongs

Just because I smile
it doesnt mean i
dont feel the frown
when I laugh
ever wonder if maybe
i wish to drown?

You'll never know
The hollow inside
Unless your the one
To have also
attempted suicide

And just because
I seem so
eccentric
happy
even strong
Doest mean
i dont feel like
i think you werent wrong


and you never notice
the shiney metal
does this mean
the scares arent real?
ever notice
the sdden sleeves
and the tendancy to
wear many bandwaids?

If only you knew
What went on 
inside my mind, 
behind closed doors, 
when Im alone in the dark..
if you only knew
how often
my hated thoughts
were of you.

you dont care
and never did
and from you
i never hid
and now i hide
all the secrets
and all the lies
curled up in a ball of hate
i think about

nothing.
my mind is blank
a sheet of white
the only thought
is of what
will coem tonight.

xoxo
Ellie J