I Wish

I wish I could disappear into the night without a trace. you not knowing where I went. or why I left. out of this bed and into the world. out of my mind and into my hands. my memories of a painful past, all the lies telling me that it isnt wrong or it wont hurt it wont scar me. I wish my memories and my life could disappear, with you. I've tried many many times to forget all that you've done, but I cant. I wish you could disappear too. Nobody knows what happened to you nobody knows what you put me through nobody now knows where I am. Suspicions arroused I giggle it's a great plan. If only my memories my past would disappear. I wish I could disappear into the night without a trace. My cuts disappear slowly into scars. I wish it were true to say you've disappeared.. with goes with my dreams. my innocence. my wishes. my smile. my life. and my memories. I want to disappear and make you feel the pain then pain inside myself that I secrety fear. xoxo Ellie J