suicide pt. 9

god please understand god please take my hand i need you now when there's no way out and it seems to never end. no one's ever there and when im lying in my grave will anybody care no no one will care no one will shed a tear nobody will miss me or wish i was still here all she does is yell for everything i am to blaim and she's always putting me down my head is full of shame and i gave him all i had my heart, my soul, all of me but he acts like im not here he's got better places to be does anybody love me does anybody care would the world be better off if i was not there no nobody will miss me nobody will mourn nobody will cry no hearts will be torn no nobody loves me and nobody will miss my being cause there's heartache in the smiles that they've all been seeing nobody knows the way i feel the way that my heart cries he doesnt know the way it felt when he spoke those lovely lies when he told me he was in love his one and only i would be when he talked about the future and the way he felt for me and my mother she doesn't listen doesnt hear the tears i shed all she has are verbal pains she wont miss me when im dead and the guy i thought i loved is causing me more hurt he doesnt see the way i cry doesnt hear my breaking heart i just wish for one moment they could feel the pain i do like an outcast, a stranger, why can't they see what they put me through and this blade is all i have to help escape their eyes suppress my sorrows, control my cries blockout the pain, blockade the lies tonight another painstaken heart lays down its head and dies.