first time in a long time (Ian)

This is kinda supposed to be a song but considering i can only write lyrics and not music i guess it could be considered a poem.
For the first time in a long time im happy
for the first time in a long time i forgot to call
it seems your no longer the first one i run too
this time i wont let you make me fall
maybe this time im lying
or maybe i made a mistake
i know how you feel about what we had
but i have nothing left for you to take
and perhaps its been too long without you
or maybe i just forgot to care
you tell me that somehow you still love me
so tell me why arent you there?
and baby you gave up your chances
god knows you had plenty of em left
so let me be the one to walk away this time
dont be the one to say that old line
Im sick of these lies they hurt me
im sick of just tryin to pretend
ive thrown up my hands in hopes that you'll see me
god knows we could never be just friends