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Does no one understand me? Does no one see this pain? I have become good at hiding, but I want to cry these tears of bitter sadness. No one will ever understand this deep pain sadness I burden. I carry a small pakage but it is very heavy. No one will take it off me. No one is here to help. People come and go sometimes they help but then they leave me. No one knows the tears I have shed. No one really cares. My wall has crumbled and I am left alone. In this world of bitter harshness and darkness. I want to be with the only one who ever cared yet I can't walk to heaven, God is keeping me here. I want to know you my dad, My pain draws on. Am I so unlovable? Where did I go wrong? What did I do? I want to know you. I love you. You do not care, you turned your back on me, you will leave me here. You won't come back to me. No one understands do they. No, You have rarely been around, but I want to. This question is left unanswered do you still love me? Did I do something wrong? Was I a mistake? Should I have never been born? Wouldn't life be easier? Nan I do not understand why it is that you should make me feel this way. I have tried to get on with you. We are seperate people and I will never be like you. I don't want to. I want to follow Christ. I pray you would, my prayers seem unanswered. Everyone tells me you have been like this all your life, but you can't of been. Surely there was a good side to you. Why did you put up this veil of bitterness? Did I do something wrong to you? Did I cause you problems when I was young? My heart is broken Nan. This hurts so much, why do you do it? Can't you see my pain? Can't you see this tear stained face? Why God have I been left in this state? Why do you let this pain go on? Why can't you take me away from it all? Why can't the tears fall? Why can't I find comfort in my friends words? Why do I feel this way? Why? Why? Why? Does anyone care? You amy think i am being a brat! Yet you are wrong my walls are crumbling, my heart is broken and I am left in over whelming darkness full of sadness, but the tears won't fall and my prayers are left unheard.