I didnt mean to break your heart
I didnt mean it when i said we were better off apart
I was just running and hiding from my feelings
So now im sat leaning against your front door
And i know your in there listening to what i have to say
And im crying because i hate being this way
Im sorry i didnt mean to hurt you
I just wanted to be happy, i expected too much
I can feel you sat against the other side
Listen to me, i've layed my down my pride
Im here to apologise, im here to tell you
That im totally in love with you
I only want a second chance
And i know i wont need a third
I wont hurt you again, because i can feel your pain
I didnt mean to break your heart
and i have never wanted us to part
I have loved you from the start I hate you feeling this way
Dont cry, im here, please open your front door, let me in
And i am not just a kid, and im not jokin
I have never felt this way, i never want to feel like this
about anyone else, because your the only one for me
So please beleive me when i say 
I know you dont want to hurt anymore
I dont want to hurt you, and i wont ever again
Because i hate it when your sad
And its my fault, and i am mad with myself
Because some things are better left on the shelf..
And the front door opens, i look up and your their
Cuts on your arm, chunks out of your hair
Baby why did you do it
Why did you put me through it
Why did you make me leave
What did i do wrong
Do you not love me
But all the answers come from my heart when i say
I love you more every single day
You didnt do anything wrong, it was all me
and i didnt want you to walk over me
i protected myself
before i thought of you
and now all i want to do, is get up and hold you
Im begging you to forgive me
and with all the love thats in me
I apologise, and i have given you my heart
trusting you wont pull me apart
Forever i want to be yours.. and from now on
It wont be behind those closed doors...

**for my baby boy, i know what i did to you, and i just want
to say thankyou for forgiving me, i will always love you,
and from now on, everyone will know.. i promise. i love you.
xx**

...this actually happened, i sat outside the front door, in
the rain for 5 hours, crying and begging, and when it
finally opened i couldnt have been happier...


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