Anger

i always said you're here for me you were always there for me but now i wait and i wait forever but you're not coming. you're never there when i need you most. you were never fucking there for me why is it i am so fucking blind that I just cant see. you don't love me not the way I want you to, no do i trust that every fleeting emotion is true. we're so not meant to be but when i close my eyes it's you who whispers sweetly to me it's you i fucking see when ever i look about. it's you who caused this pain it's your fault that i shout. all the blood and all the tears i wish i had saved it up these past three years. i'd push you in it and make you breathe fuck you, can you not believe? look at what you've done look. just fucking see. do you see what a tattered mess i am? look at what you fucking did to me. i don't need you not like i say i do i'm lying, you're shit. i gather that we're really through. fuck you. just fucking go. if you don't want me then why the fuck dont you just say so you told me that you loved me and that you missed me too i shyed away and was wary and then i gave myself to you. you had to go right then and today you're fucking late. i called you, six, seven times.. no eight. can't you fucking have the balls to be stright and upfront. instead of leaving us waiting. ugh you're such a fucking cunt. xoxo Ellie J