like a blade cutting through my heart
i hear your voice call out to me
the words so soft yet so load
to loud.

shut up
shut up is all im able to say 
so many words in my head yet
when i open my mouth 
shut up is all i can say 

and why wont it go away
as it get louder more voices
seem to come
and as if im stuck in time
time itself has seemed to stop

i now know what i must do
but how? its to hard 
and finally i can say more
but not much more

leave me alone
im scared
help 

and now what 
i no i cant stay 
this way forever
and just as time seems 
to start movieing faster
then what i can handle  

i wake up 
could it all have 
just been a dream 
but no its 
my reality 
and like a helpless childe 
i must live in this nightmare
i call my reality