Confusion of Life and Emotion

For some reason as time goes on I lose more and more of what faith I have, My emotion of this I suppose is called faithless and in a state of mind I fell lost under an unknown surface that is not good but rather bad, Confused but yet certain my feelings shift, About how my life has progressed and also how it has changed, unwanted or not, my mind is always adrift, Something straightforward or in other words more absolute, I wish my life could be with the help of someone who doesn’t lie, but tells truth, Uncertain am I of the destination I seem to proceed forward to, A life I need to begin thinking about and a choice I need to choose, Abstracted from my chest specific feelings are removed, Alone I am not, but alone I feel and don’t know what to do, At this point I am on the verge from disturbance and I feel I might break, Help is what I honestly need for much longer I may not be able to take, This nightmare of a life I cry as I awake, The presence of this evil I hope is not real but fake, And yet so real I can tell it is by the pressure I feel in the depth of my spirit, Lost in this deep abyss, the climax of this complication I feel has yet to come and at the same time I know its coming because I can feel it, Realizations of my feelings are making it obvious something is wrong, Clear of what is wrong is unknown and I begin to feel weak or in other words not strong, In holding on to the will of life my so called willpower is almost completely drained, As this happens I remain calm and try to stay sane, Very difficult the context of what I write down becomes when tried to be made into an understanding, The handle of life I am no longer handling, And yet my existence is still here, Maybe this all so called hope has not disappeared, Inspiration in life is needed in order to regain this control, Come back I shall and that handle I see once more I shall grab a hold, Because in a sense time heals all, and as I tell myself “And this too shall pass” I now realize life is worth living, because of the people that are there for me and the love they share with me make me smile and make my feelings up rise and optimistic am I now and forever last. By: Tyler Golden