Risen Optimistically in Thought

As this disturbing darkness rises in my soul, I feel something painful and burning, as it creates a hole, For my body is completely filled in nothing but this evil, Did I spontaneously create it, or was it because of these ignorant annoying people, I’m not sure, but there is one thing I know, That my sanity is slowly disintegrating and I begin to lose this control, Over the decisions and actions I make in my corrupted life, I’m beginning to give up, because I’m sick of this complicated endless fight, I try so hard, and get up and try again, But every time I once more stand, there appears to be no end, To these obstacles and problems that show up over and over, I need some help or maybe a little bit of luck, so I search for a four-leaf clover, But find something very more helpful and inspiring in such a way, I want to stay with this newly found inspiration, for the rest of my finally meaningful days, To take care of and be there for this one incredibly amazing person, Love and respect I shall for I do not wish to hurt them, Or specifically the one that grabs my attention, And of course not to mention, The one that cares about me, mutually the way I do her, It’s so interesting, like a rarely see bird, Now understanding that I have meaning left in this existence known as mine, I will always do better and work harder for the rest of my time, Because this one person has brought me newly found hope, Substances I will no longer have to use in order to cope, With the life I almost didn’t want any more, My heart was sealed shut, but now it has an open door, For understanding and to love this person more than any other thing or ideal, I’m so extremely happy that what is happening is real, And that now I can move on positively and forever live in harmony, This person I have found shows absolute true love and it’s all towards me, Doubtful in a way it seems, and overall it’s hard to believe, To comprehend to just give time to pass, Can change such thoughts of suicide, and can make you more optimistic and to show that love can always last…. By: Tyler Golden 12/14/08