As this disturbing darkness rises in my soul,
I feel something painful and burning, as it creates a hole,
For my body is completely filled in nothing but this evil,
Did I spontaneously create it, or was it because of these
ignorant annoying people,
I’m not sure, but there is one thing I know,
That my sanity is slowly disintegrating and I begin to lose
this control,
Over the decisions and actions I make in my corrupted life,
I’m beginning to give up, because I’m sick of this
complicated endless fight,
I try so hard, and get up and try again,
But every time I once more stand, there appears to be no
end,
To these obstacles and problems that show up over and over,
I need some help or maybe a little bit of luck, so I search
for a four-leaf clover,
But find something very more helpful and inspiring in such a
way,
I want to stay with this newly found inspiration, for the
rest of my finally meaningful days,
To take care of and be there for this one incredibly amazing
person,
Love and respect I shall for I do not wish to hurt them,
Or specifically the one that grabs my attention,
And of course not to mention,
The one that cares about me, mutually the way I do her,
It’s so interesting, like a rarely see bird,
Now understanding that I have meaning left in this existence
known as mine,
I will always do better and work harder for the rest of my
time,
Because this one person has brought me newly found hope,
Substances I will no longer have to use in order to cope,
With the life I almost didn’t want any more,
My heart was sealed shut, but now it has an open door,
For understanding and to love this person more than any
other thing or ideal,
I’m so extremely happy that what is happening is real,
And that now I can move on positively and forever live in
harmony,
This person I have found shows absolute true love and it’s
all towards me,
Doubtful in a way it seems, and overall it’s hard to
believe,
To comprehend to just give time to pass,
Can change such thoughts of suicide, and can make you more
optimistic and to show that love can always last….
By: Tyler Golden
12/14/08