I have learnt that love is hard and destiny builds itself,
And in life u often have to have a certain amount of
stealth.
Destiny is not something you shouldn’t go looking for or
try to alter,
If Relationships are meant to be they will,
If they’re not the relationship comes to a standstill.
It’s hard to end any relationship in your world,
Especially if that decision leaves your somewhat hurled,
Hurled and falling onto a path that is uncertain which makes
you scared,
Hopes may be broken and dreams may be tarred.
Destiny is not something that is bound to happen rather
something you choose,
In the end there is nothing to loose.
What in this life what do you really own?
What do you take with you when you die and what effect does
your life sowe.
Really everything in this life is relative and that’s
unfair,
But life wasn’t designed to care.
This is why you live your life to every breath and every
heartbeat,
Try to keep grounded, walk on the souls of your feet?
Four years in my relationship had passed, 
Lots of crying and lots of laughs.
That’s exactly what it was-was my relationship,
He never moved he’d basically just sit.
Listen to what I’d say and pretend to care,
Cause with the reality of things wasn’t there.
I fought the fight by myself and did not win,
He tossed my efforts into the bin.
It’s hard to cope,
But I still hold some hope.
We were always so up and down,
Never sure whether to wear a grin or a frown.
One minute we were on-the next we were off,
By the end the landing wasn’t very soft.
Now, Success in life is all I ask,
It seems like such an unachievable task.
However, i will do whatever I start,
And my independence I will not part.
It’s hard to evoke a personality of my own, 
But that’s how it is- that’s how my life’s story has
sown.
It’s almost like I let myself disappear,
Something that I had always feared.
My whole life I’ve let people control me,
I cannot believe I let him, and I wasn’t me.
He kept saying I’d changed and i wasn’t who I use to
be,
Perhaps that’s because he’d kept me from being free.
I always was that sort of a girl,
The kind who was always in a bit of a twirl.
I was hiding who I was for sure,
But I was free and independent –knew what I stood for.
I didn’t limit myself to always pretending things were
okay,
Didn’t always let the bad feelings stay.
It’s easy to look back and say well it wasn’t that bad,
Maybe it seemed worse because I was sad.
But it isn’t like that at all,
And this time I won’t take the fall.
I am not the one to blame, 
He’s the one who should be ashamed.
I tried to meet him more than half way,
But right at the starting point he would stay.
I continued to run the mental marathons by myself,
Not worry about how it was affecting anything even my
health.
Problems ran around and around in my head,
And somehow I kept it from being said.
I shouldn’t have had to be mentally weary from doing all
the hard stuff,
Until eventually I had had enough.
I ran away from the bad situation because I wanted it to
end, 
I knew if I stayed close to him we would be more than just
friends.
Going around and around in circles not moving anywhere,
Then in the mirror one day I might’ve starred.
Looked at myself and realised everything was not right,
Why did we do this why did we continue to fight?
Our destiny seems to have got us so far, 
And it hasn’t been up to par.
Even though u deny it I know u cheated me,
Made me look like a fool for everyone to see.
I stood by him time and time again,
I trusted him every time- but that was then.
I know I must look like a fool and it kills,
But I won’t hide behind anything I will not stand still.
Let people think what they want and let them stare,
Why the fuck should I care?
Until people can say they have walked a mile in my shoes,
I don’t care what they say or what they do.
I can’t believe after all this I am still defending,
I make excuses for everything he’d do.
No more excuses, no more old me,
I will make a new mould and then I’ll break free.
I’ll make my life how I want it,
I won’t wear my heart on my sleeve, fuck I’ll wear a
battle kit.
Life is after all one big battle of what’s wrong and
what’s right,
Most people live in limbo and aren’t willing to fight.
I’ll be strong and I won’t let anyone beat me down,
On my face you will never see a frown.
This is my fresh start- my turned leaf,
I don’t wanna look back with any grief.
I’ll live life to the second,
And to no one will I beckon.
This is real this story is me,
And the reality and strength will set me free.
I will be stronger just u wait n see,
Nothing will get in my way of what I want to be.