untitled, by Ashley Reneë *Raining Tears*
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i have some memories of my dad
but only the ones that are painfully sad
mainly the night before he died
i said some bad things and then he cried
i didnt mean for them to come out like they were said
i told him i hated him and wished that he was dead
and my wish came true that very next day
i guess thats the price that i had to pay
i am not happy with myself
but at that momment thats what i felt
i have that memory lodged in my brain
and what it has caused was a lot of pain
i was going to kill myself the other night
but something was wrong it just didnt feel right
im not religious, but i think God was trying to tell me
something
to not throw my life away because its not nothing
i had someone tell me the other day
"that not everybody can feel your pain
and thats what shapes us for who we are"
his words made a difference in my life and just that there
will take me far
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| Posted: 2009-02-24 15:26:24 UTC |
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| 2009-02-27 23:58:50 | Chalan |
| This was a very well written poem. We all have times when we have said something that we all regret and unfortunately there are times when we are too late to ask for forgiveness... but in situations like this I find its important to be able to forgive yourself and in doing so you will find that you have been forgiven. I am sorry for your loss and the pain of losing your father and the guilt that you feel but I hope and pray that in time you will be able to let that guilt go. You are still really young and have your whole life in front of
you. Your father wouldn't want you to be wasting it on the things that you had said and the things you have done He would want you to move on and make him proud. |
| 2009-03-01 00:27:53 | Invisible Poet |
| Im glad my words mean something to someone... most of what i say or write just gets ignored or taken for granted. this is a very expressive piece and i personally am glad you wrote it |
| 2009-03-18 00:58:33 | Tyler Cedric Golden |
| wow this poem is very well expressed and very heartfelt and im very sorry if this is true but this is overall a fantastic poem!...Tyler |
| 2009-08-21 03:10:07 | Butterfly |
| This is so sad, the lost of sum1 u love really hurts && we ache inside, its not our fault it was there time to go. Maybe we could of done sumthin 2 stop it or not, just remember their watchin us from heaven |