This was suppose to happen, is what the say,
But I think there was an alternative direction, a different
way,
For things to occur with less depression, less sorrow,
But this is what happened, and I will feel the same way I do
tomorrow,
You were always by my side,
There for me until the day I was to die,
True shown love just by the look of your eyes,
Now you are somewhere up in the sky,
I wish I could tell you I loved you one more time,
And that I am still forever yours, and you are still forever
mine,
But now it seems, I will never be fine,
Without you,
	I am so lost and confused,
Not knowing what to do…..

When I went to see you at your funeral, I instantly burst
into tears,
Knowing the one in there, was my beautiful kind-hearted
dear,
My love, my true happiness, my other half,
The one who I promised my love would always last,
But now you physically, are only a memory of my past,
I never thought my first true love, would have left so
fast,
You were my savior from the darkness and hate,
You picked me up and altered my fate,
Into happiness, love, and care,
You were with me always, anywhere…..

Without your motivation, without your aid,
I feel my life is done, no suggestions to be made,
About what to do next,
And if this was a test,
Then I failed, but that is fine with me,
Because this world was so horribly cruel to me,
So as I pick up this gun, I hope you know,
That I am fixing to show,
That you were truly EVERYTHING TO ME!!!
And now, my hearts sorrow overpowers my will to live,
Lord please forgive me, for all of the wrong I did….

“POP!!!!”

My coffin waits, chosen before birth,
Waiting for me on this earth,
I know I made a mistake, but I can never turn back,
So I crawl into this coffin of death, this coffin, covered
in black.