Struggle through the Night and Day.

Every day, I try to sleep away, And stay, In a status of absence in thought, Because so hard I fought, For you and our love and passion, Being alone is not my fashion, But being independent is something I wake up to every day, Intoxicating my mind to get away, Slithering and forcing myself away from memories, Makes me wonder, what is to become of me, Do I continue with a purpose? Or drop dead in a ditch, Either way life has flipped the switch, On my pursuit towards happiness, the light used to shine but now has disappeared, Every second I wish you could be here, But no; after the intoxication through the day night crawls upon my life and I still try to get away, It appears as if I sleep but in my mind and heart I really don't, I asked you if you would every hurt me you said "I won't", You made a promise and I know it wasn't your choice to leave, But the way you felt about my actions towards you you did not have to decieve, And make me believe, Things are ok, And as I slip away, From life and the old me, The happy person, I used to be, I struggle through the day, and cry through the night, No longer do I know, if I can keep up this fight, To survive, And strive, In the pursuit towards happiness, But what I had wasn't missed, It was destroyed and swept away, Like no one cares whats put on my lifes tray, Dish after dish, Wish after wish, All I want is to give you a kiss, And tell you one more time how I feel, Show my passion and my love, show you everything thats real, Inside my heart, To help stop us from being torn apart, Please tell me you'll call me and in your heart I'll stay, So I won't have such a struggle through the night and day.