The End?...

Lost deep in thought, Every moment is a cost, Just being alive, I wish I could die, So no longer I could remember what you brought in my life, I know it was love, but the pain I have to fight, Of you being gone, When you are as beautiful as a swawn, And as delicate as an infant, My life I spend it, Spaced, drowned out in my own thoughts, About what I lost, And what I had, Wasn't bad, But ended that way, And as I try to hide my pain away, It burns through my blockade, So far I have made, It in life going through things I would not expect at this age, Like I am trapped in a cage, Never meant to escape, never meant to be happy, My life feels ruined remembering everything we been through that is now nothing but a memory of the past, So long I thought we would last, Forever is what I hoped, But your parents said "nope", And ended both of our lives, what motivated us to live and do better, Now it feels you are gone forever, And that I have nothing left to go through in life but stormy weather, Why can't we be together, We can change faster by helping each other, But only if your parents could discover, What has come from this event, And how much time has been spent, Towards us loving one another, And always being there for each other more than blood-brothers, But now you are gone and a knife seems to be a good friend, Hopefully though, my life it will not end....