Please don't judge me by what you find here. You can attempt to comprehend my thoughts and feelings if you feel the need, but there have only been two people who use to understand me, God and a very special boy. The words you find from beyond this point may anger, bother, confuse, mock, insult, worry or kill you. They have had the above mentioned effects on me, including the last one. Remember there is more than physical death. so read on and examine me, don't judge, just simply accept what you find, whether you are amazed or disgusted by it.